Every human being has a story. Life has showed me over and over again that you should never look at someone and think they have it easy. You will never know. In the same way that everyone has a story, there are also different seasons in one’s life. Life is a journey and through each season God moulds our character and forms us for the next season. Many things have happened in my life, but God has graced me with His strength and joy to conquer each season.
In school I used to be a quiet, introverted little girl. I remember being the first one in class to take out my book and read while everyone else used to play when the teachers weren’t in class. I was shy and scared to be myself. I never realised that shy was not who God intended me to be. I feared being rejected, what if people thought I was too weird? What if I turned out to be too crazy and ended up without friends? I rather lived in my own little safe place where I could read and be around friends that I felt comfortable with. I remember being extremely shy around guys and never having any guy friends, which caused me to further doubt myself.
In grade 10 on Summer Camp I realised my only reason for being shy, was being uncertain of what people might think of me. I decided to let go of my fear of people. I knew that living in fear was going to keep me from being who I was called to be. I wrote on a paper that I will no longer fear the opinion of people and burnt it in a big bonfire.
It was probably one of the most freeing things I’ve ever done. Since that day I became the craziest, weirdest and most excited person alive. It felt like I’ve exploded, because I had to keep my personality to myself for so many years. Up to this day people are sometimes shocked about my level of excitement about the little things in life, but I know it comes from an authentic place. Sometimes people judge me and I remember rumours being spread that I am fake, because I was “too happy,” but people’s opinions does not affect me anymore. I am free to be who God has called me to be.
This is only a small part of my story and what has made me who I am today. It has taught me that the one thing that God blessed you with that nobody else has, is you. Live as only you can, do not compare yourself with others. Everybody has their own flavour that they bring to life and not accepting yourself, robs you from joy and keeps you from having fun. Society sets so many rules. You need to have a lot of instagram followers to be cool, or you have to wear Nike shoes, or this or that, but I believe you should do what you want to do. Wear what makes you feel good, don’t try fit the mould that society has carved out for the world. God has created each one of us to live a unique and purpose filled life.
I believe my purpose is to love, encourage, dance, worship and live a life that brings honour to God. One of the most important things that I carry with me every day is the principle written in Nehemiah 8:11: “The joy of the Lord is my strength.” I believe it makes me who I am today. I can never promise life to be easy. Life has knocked me, pushed me, hit me hard and definitely challenged me in ways that I never thought I would be able to overcome, but making the joy of the Lord my strength has taught me how to be content through it all and awakened the joy of the Lord in my heart. When you truly experience the joy of the Lord you will never be able to deny it. You will always find something to be thankful for, because God has proven His faithfulness over and over again. He is good all the time.